Any time that I have free time, my mind thinks about all sorts of things. But there are some thoughts that come up daily. These thoughts make a lot of my life choices questionable. Don't get me wrong, I am very happy with my life but it seems like I have these "What ifs" going on in my head daily.
I'm happy with the career that I chose because I want to help people and turn a bad day into good along with getting to know them too. But is this really what I want to do for the rest of my life? I didn't make good grades at all in Math, Science, or English to excel in any career involving those, so that leaves out a LOT of careers.
I'm a quiet, shy person at first but once you get to know me I can be outgoing and fun. But I'm not confident in myself whatsoever. If I had only been more outgoing at first, I think I would be more confident in myself today. I was the baby of the family and was picked on a lot so that didn't help with my confidence as a child. If only I wouldn't second guess myself and not let fear take over.
Another thing is I want to travel to many different places in the U.S. and around the world. My 2 main places that I'd like to go to is Paris, France and Rome, Italy. I'm just scared to fly. I also feel like the need to move from my current home but why would I uproot my children from their friends and family. And how in the world would I be able to move hundreds or even a thousand miles away from my mom?!?!
So many thoughts going through my mind daily but these I'd say are the main ones that I really think about. Being scatter brained doesn't help any either....Let's just hope I will be able to settle some of these or be able to fufill a couple of them! ;)
It's late and after being up since 4:30 in the morning and working a 12 hour shift, I'm going to try and go to sleep without thinking! Goodnight! :)
I have wandering thoughts, too. I think to myself every day, "What will I be when I grow up?" I think we'll never know for sure what could be until we try it. Try it and like it, try it and don't like it. It's hard to say if you don't put yourself out there and go for it. But, that's also the hardest part. One of the major reasons I love blogging is that it gives me the ability to explore those thoughts and dreams and see if they sound ridiculous to me when I read them back to myself. If so, they are just a fun thing I have written. If they don't sound ridiculous to me, I start to think, "Hey, maybe I can make this a reality some day!" Reach for the stars, lady! :)
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